Afterthoughts~A Midsemester Night's Dream
Written by Isa
Set after "A Midsemester Night's Dream"
Julia swung her arm around in the dark. Ned didn't seem to care about
anything but finding the hook to her bra, but she was interested in
light. She knocked his alarm clock and a glass, which broke, down
found the lamp. She fumbled for the switch and turned it, but remained
"There's no bulb." he kept right on kissing her neck and trying to
She pushed his hands off her body. "Let's take a time out."
She sat up and took a couple deep breaths. She felt the need to stand
and jump around to cool off, but resisted it.
"I just, uh, I can't do this."
"WHAT?" Ned seemed almost angry.
"I can't......keep trying to act like a single woman. Because I'm not
"Not technically, no. There's that whole
he-cheated-and-we're-seperating-thing. I'm cool with it."
"We're not seperated."
"You told me you were." his eyes were cold.
"No, what I said was that we were seperated because he's there and I'm
But, when I think about it, I still--"
"I thought your marriage was over."
"It was. I mean, I thought it was. I don't know what I mean. But I
"What? Why is that good?" Julia was getting annoyed.
"I don't know...."
"Do you love Maggie?"
"I loved Maggie the minute I saw her."
"Do you still?"
"I....I told her I do."
"At the party."
"Yes, but I swear to God, I thought she was you."
"I tried to tell you."
"I couldn't tell that your voice was coming from across the room and
"So now what?"
"You tell me."
"I mean you just show up here in the middle of the night and you--"
"I have to stop."
"Stop what? We haven't done anything."
"We were about to. I have to stop pretending that I can just see you
okay with it. I'm not and I can't."
"Then why did you come here?"
Julia stammered. "I don't know."
"Eeeh! Try again."
"I love it here. The campus. The classes, the schoolwork, even
love everything that Stanford has to offer, but I love Griffin too, and
can't have both."
"And you came to my room at three am because??"
"I guess I just needed to test myself. To see if I was really ready
on, which I'm not, and I'm sorry that you had to get in the middle of
I was having with myself. But you know somethin' Ned? Go back to
"Go back to her, because you two belong together."
Ned just stood there shaking his head.
"I've gotta go." Julia left the room without thinking about it. She
to get away from all the things clogging her mind and just think.
automatically, she walked across campus to her car and fumbled under the
bumper for her emergency key. She found it, let herself in, and headed
Claudia sat up in her bed, crying. She hoped none of the other girls
her as she weeped. She missed Jamie, she missed her house, she even
Charlie and his yelling at her. She wanted to go home, but she knew
she went back, she'd miss her school and her friends there. Either way,
lost something. She reached under her bed and grabbed her journal. She
tears from her eyes and wrote.
"'Each loss is a gain.' Someone famous said that. They're right, but
forgot to end the statement. 'Each gain is a loss.'"
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